Time flies...

Time sure has been passing by quickly lately now that Aaron will be back in a little over a week.  It feels weird writing that because in the beginning I was sure that time would be lagging, but now I feel like where has all the time gone.  I still need to reorganize the kitchen and bathroom cabinet, then thankfully I'm done.  Hopefully Aaron gets the leave he requested when he comes back because we need to spend more time before he leaves. I don't have much to write right now so until later...

Counting down...

This week was yet again a hectic one.  I've been slowly but surely getting this reorganization project completed, I just need to reorganize the kitchen and bathroom cabinets and I'm done, thank goodness!!!  This passed Tuesday was our wedding anniversary and I was feeling really down, I didn't cry but I definitely felt like it.  I'm just tired of crying, which is what I did for most of the first week, so I tried my hardest to not give in to the urge. I just can't wait for Aaron to come home in a few weeks, I'm just so excited for that day.  Our daughter and I are already planning his homecoming but at the same time I keep telling myself that not long after that he'll be gone again and it won't be for a month!  I still can't believe this is happening and on top of all that a few things have gone wrong at home that NEVER went wrong when Aaron was here.  For example 3 different light bulbs went out within a day of eachother, that may not sound like a big deal but in the nearly one year we've been living in this house that hasn't happened.  Then our wall clock in the living room died, which hasn't happened before, either.  Okay, okay, so that doesn't seem too bad either, hopefully that'll be the extent of anything bad!!!

I just want things to go back to normal and I'm most likely going to have to wait until next year for that to happen...

So much going on...

This week has been pretty hectic for both Aaron and I, but for different reasons.  I've been buying storage containers and drawers and reorganizing the house.  Aaron, on the other hand, has been busy with all the rigorous training that he's been assigned to do, most of the time clocking in 18 hour days. He's actually been so good about calling and making time for our daughter and me.  I keep on telling him that I completely understand that he's busy and tired so there isn't any need to call all the time but he's so devoted to keeping in touch that he calls us every chance that he gets.
I actually missed his call today since our daughter and I went on base to run some errands so I was a bit disappointed about that but I'm sure I'll get a call later on.  I actually feel like this months finally going by fast enough for me and hopefully that's how it'll be when the actual deployment is underway.  In the meantime, I'm busying my self with this reorganization and my goal is to have everything done before my Love comes back home.  I just want our daughter and I to spend as much time with Aaron that we can because he will be gone for a while and we love him so much!!!

been awhile...

So it's been a few days since I last wrote and for good reason.  As much as I am missing my husband I can't help but think about some of the stuff that I read on milspouse.com about husbands acting up during TDY's and deployments.  Some went as far as e-mailing their spouses for a divorce while still deployed.  I thought that was absolutely ridiculous and unforgivable no matter how much pressure the service member is under.  In our case, my husband is well aware that if it wasn't for my daughter and I both being in school, I wouldn't hesitate going back to my parents and living there until he comes back from deployment.  As much as I love being in Europe, I'm not particularly found of our current location, especially since he's not with us during that time frame.  Anyhow, I debated with myself as to if and how I would bring this up to him and last night I gave in and talked to him about it.  I simply told my husband that I was on the milspouse site and was reading up about deployment issues when I came across this particular post.  I gave him some of the details of certain situation and in the end I told him that if I even have an inkling that he's going to bring something up like that to me, my daughter and I are packing our bags and leaving, simple as that.  I also mentioned to him some of the lengths that certain troops went to cheat on their wives, and in some cases getting the other service member pregnant.  He assured me that that won't happen to us and I do believe him but I thought it something that we should address because it is a real occurrence in our military community.  I will not waste our daughters' or my time in a place we don't want to be just for him to hurt us, because that would not only hurt me but would greatly affect or daughter as well.  I just feel better that I brought that up to him.
Another thing we talked about afterward, which I didn't bring up, he did, was when we should try for another baby.  After lots of consideration we both felt that if we were going to do this, we would do it after our vacation in the States in the end of June.  He thought that was a brilliant idea and we're decided, that definitely makes me feel that our marriage has more solidarity and I love it.  I miss him so much and our daughter does as well.  We still have a few more weeks before he comes back and need to really put a dent in this reorganization so today, our daughter and went and bought more storage containers and will do so again on Thursday.  Until the next time...

Dealing with it...

Another week is almost over and I think I'm coping rather well.  Of course I miss Aaron and long for him to be here with us but I'm dealing with the separation and making the most of it.  I'm trying to get a lot of stuff done at home and things are slowly and surely coming together.  I don't have much to say today except that I love my husband and our daughter and I can't wait to be reunited with him!

Independence Day

So today is the 4th of July, Independence Day, a time for celebration, family bbq's, fireworks and all around merriment.  In the midst of all the celebration we sometimes forget what this holiday is all about.  We celebrate the 4th of July because 235 years ago, America became America when we won our independence from British rule.  Today, while we aren't fighting for independence, we are, however,still in the middle of three wars. That means that thousands of miles away we have our American men and women no where near their families so they can defend our country and for that I salute them, thank you for all you do!
This Independence Day has been a quiet one for our daughter and I.  We did some laundry, watched a bunch of movies and had some chicken cacciatore for dinner then watched the fire works show on base from my master bedroom balcony.  All that was missing was Aaron and it broke my heart when our daughter mentioned that, saying how much she wished her Dad was here with us.  I couldn't help but think of all the holidays and special occasions that we wouldn't be spending together because of his deployment.  Our daughter is aware of this but it hasn't settled in and I imagine that it won't until he actually leaves.  I'm just praying everything goes by quickly and we reunite with Aaron, who comes back to us safe and sound.

Busy is good...

The past few days have been a bit hectic and busy which is a welcome distraction since it feels like the days go by faster.  When things die down, that's when the sadness slowly creeps in, that's the time I remember that at the end of my day Aaron's day is just beginning... a world away.  I miss the hugs, cuddles and kisses, all I can do is count the days down and look forward to our reunion.  Making the best of the little time we have together before he has to leave again.  I can't help but wonder how it is for those wives or husbands whose spouses are being deployed frequently... does it get easier each time their spouse leaves or does it hurt just as much as the first time?  I hope that this is something that we don't have to re-experience for a long time, again with the selfishness but I can't help it.  I just need to focus on the stuff I need to take care of now, while he's back, when he leaves again and when we are finally reunited.  Looking forward to our Spring time trip then back to the States to visit our families helps tremendously.  I miss him so much and love him with all my heart...  I can't wait to see you again Babes!!!