WOW...

So it's been a few weeks since I've written on here which, thankfully, is due to how busy life has been lately.  Like I said on my last post school has restarted for both my daughter and I so it's been a zoo around here.  Couple that with my endless buying and sending of care packages to Aaron and it makes one busy Nicole.
I have to say, though, that despite how busy I am I still can help but think about Aaron every waking minute of my day.  I just miss him so much, it helps though that we can talk and skype often enough but still, nothing beats having him right here by our side.  I'm really glad it's September, though, I feel like too much went on in August that I just needed the month to change so I can feel these days tick off of the calendar.  I'm extremely thankful that my husband calls as much as he does, it brings some normalcy to this situation because he would do that when he was in his regular squadron.  On another note, I went to the craft store on base last Friday and I spent around $30 on what amounted to be a bunch of paper and cutouts, LOL!!!  Fall being my favorite time of year and it seems like our daughter's as well, I wanted to make it extra special this year since Aaron isn't with us at the moment so I decided to buy a bunch of Fall and Halloween inspired papers and cutouts so we can decorate and send some crafts to Aaron and my parents and possibly his mother as well.  We made collages and bookmarks so it was a pretty fun bonding experience for the both of us.  Anyhow, it's getting late and I have a full day ahead so until next time...

And it begins...

So it's been a few weeks since I've written anything in this blog and that's because of a few good reasons.  First of all I wanted to spend as much time with Aaron and our daughter as I could before he had to leave for the long haul and secondly, after he left I just wanted things to sink in before I attempted to put anything down in words.  It's been a while since he's left and I'm doing pretty well, I literally only cried once, the day he left, for about five minutes.  Before that, though, when Aaron was still here, it was pretty difficult for me to keep the tears back.  I've heard from other people in this same position that the anticipation to the big day of seeing your spouse off is far worse than actually seeing them go.  That's exactly how I felt, that isn't to say though that him not being here doesn't hurt because it does, a lot.  I feel so bad for our daughter especially because all she can talk about is how much she misses her Dad, how it is when Dad's here, what we're going to be doing when Dad comes back.  She hasn't cried about it but I could still see the sadness in her eyes which is very difficult because she's not that type of person.  She's extremely happy all the time, especially when she's with her Dad because she's Daddy's little girl in all senses of the word.
It's helping, though, that we've got a lot of things going on with school starting for her next week and school starting for me this past Monday.  It's only been three days of school and I'm already stressed, hahaha, but I'm so blessed to have that so that the time passes by faster with it.  We're still trying to re-establish routines and I suspect it'll be easier once she goes back to school next week so that'll be helpful.  I'll try to post as much as I can, at least 3-4 times a week which would be good for me to vent, etc.  Anyhow, until next time...

Finally!!!

So the time finally came and Aaron returned to us safe and sound.  Our daughter and I are extremely happy that he's back but I can't help but feel like there is a veil of unhappiness surrounding our feelings.  Obviously this is due to the fact that he'll be leaving us very soon to deploy and of course we'll miss him even more since he'll be gone for a far longer time than before.  I don't have much else to write about right now so until next time...

Time flies...

Time sure has been passing by quickly lately now that Aaron will be back in a little over a week.  It feels weird writing that because in the beginning I was sure that time would be lagging, but now I feel like where has all the time gone.  I still need to reorganize the kitchen and bathroom cabinet, then thankfully I'm done.  Hopefully Aaron gets the leave he requested when he comes back because we need to spend more time before he leaves. I don't have much to write right now so until later...

Counting down...

This week was yet again a hectic one.  I've been slowly but surely getting this reorganization project completed, I just need to reorganize the kitchen and bathroom cabinets and I'm done, thank goodness!!!  This passed Tuesday was our wedding anniversary and I was feeling really down, I didn't cry but I definitely felt like it.  I'm just tired of crying, which is what I did for most of the first week, so I tried my hardest to not give in to the urge. I just can't wait for Aaron to come home in a few weeks, I'm just so excited for that day.  Our daughter and I are already planning his homecoming but at the same time I keep telling myself that not long after that he'll be gone again and it won't be for a month!  I still can't believe this is happening and on top of all that a few things have gone wrong at home that NEVER went wrong when Aaron was here.  For example 3 different light bulbs went out within a day of eachother, that may not sound like a big deal but in the nearly one year we've been living in this house that hasn't happened.  Then our wall clock in the living room died, which hasn't happened before, either.  Okay, okay, so that doesn't seem too bad either, hopefully that'll be the extent of anything bad!!!

I just want things to go back to normal and I'm most likely going to have to wait until next year for that to happen...

So much going on...

This week has been pretty hectic for both Aaron and I, but for different reasons.  I've been buying storage containers and drawers and reorganizing the house.  Aaron, on the other hand, has been busy with all the rigorous training that he's been assigned to do, most of the time clocking in 18 hour days. He's actually been so good about calling and making time for our daughter and me.  I keep on telling him that I completely understand that he's busy and tired so there isn't any need to call all the time but he's so devoted to keeping in touch that he calls us every chance that he gets.
I actually missed his call today since our daughter and I went on base to run some errands so I was a bit disappointed about that but I'm sure I'll get a call later on.  I actually feel like this months finally going by fast enough for me and hopefully that's how it'll be when the actual deployment is underway.  In the meantime, I'm busying my self with this reorganization and my goal is to have everything done before my Love comes back home.  I just want our daughter and I to spend as much time with Aaron that we can because he will be gone for a while and we love him so much!!!

been awhile...

So it's been a few days since I last wrote and for good reason.  As much as I am missing my husband I can't help but think about some of the stuff that I read on milspouse.com about husbands acting up during TDY's and deployments.  Some went as far as e-mailing their spouses for a divorce while still deployed.  I thought that was absolutely ridiculous and unforgivable no matter how much pressure the service member is under.  In our case, my husband is well aware that if it wasn't for my daughter and I both being in school, I wouldn't hesitate going back to my parents and living there until he comes back from deployment.  As much as I love being in Europe, I'm not particularly found of our current location, especially since he's not with us during that time frame.  Anyhow, I debated with myself as to if and how I would bring this up to him and last night I gave in and talked to him about it.  I simply told my husband that I was on the milspouse site and was reading up about deployment issues when I came across this particular post.  I gave him some of the details of certain situation and in the end I told him that if I even have an inkling that he's going to bring something up like that to me, my daughter and I are packing our bags and leaving, simple as that.  I also mentioned to him some of the lengths that certain troops went to cheat on their wives, and in some cases getting the other service member pregnant.  He assured me that that won't happen to us and I do believe him but I thought it something that we should address because it is a real occurrence in our military community.  I will not waste our daughters' or my time in a place we don't want to be just for him to hurt us, because that would not only hurt me but would greatly affect or daughter as well.  I just feel better that I brought that up to him.
Another thing we talked about afterward, which I didn't bring up, he did, was when we should try for another baby.  After lots of consideration we both felt that if we were going to do this, we would do it after our vacation in the States in the end of June.  He thought that was a brilliant idea and we're decided, that definitely makes me feel that our marriage has more solidarity and I love it.  I miss him so much and our daughter does as well.  We still have a few more weeks before he comes back and need to really put a dent in this reorganization so today, our daughter and went and bought more storage containers and will do so again on Thursday.  Until the next time...