Reflection 1

A personal reflection on the separation caused by military training and deployment from the perspective of an Air Force wife.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

And it begins...

So it's been a few weeks since I've written anything in this blog and that's because of a few good reasons.  First of all I wanted to spend as much time with Aaron and our daughter as I could before he had to leave for the long haul and secondly, after he left I just wanted things to sink in before I attempted to put anything down in words.  It's been a while since he's left and I'm doing pretty well, I literally only cried once, the day he left, for about five minutes.  Before that, though, when Aaron was still here, it was pretty difficult for me to keep the tears back.  I've heard from other people in this same position that the anticipation to the big day of seeing your spouse off is far worse than actually seeing them go.  That's exactly how I felt, that isn't to say though that him not being here doesn't hurt because it does, a lot.  I feel so bad for our daughter especially because all she can talk about is how much she misses her Dad, how it is when Dad's here, what we're going to be doing when Dad comes back.  She hasn't cried about it but I could still see the sadness in her eyes which is very difficult because she's not that type of person.  She's extremely happy all the time, especially when she's with her Dad because she's Daddy's little girl in all senses of the word.
It's helping, though, that we've got a lot of things going on with school starting for her next week and school starting for me this past Monday.  It's only been three days of school and I'm already stressed, hahaha, but I'm so blessed to have that so that the time passes by faster with it.  We're still trying to re-establish routines and I suspect it'll be easier once she goes back to school next week so that'll be helpful.  I'll try to post as much as I can, at least 3-4 times a week which would be good for me to vent, etc.  Anyhow, until next time...

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